笑我笨！

笑我笨！笑我笨！笑我笨！笑我笨！笑我笨！

不是第一次，这么样发生了！

答应了人，不会这样了，还是笨笨的再来。。。

伤的不是你而是我！

为什么就是要这样？

我明明懂这些，可是还是久犯。

Be Tough

I have to be tough in everything , ever since i'm the only male in this family , the biggest from here, i can't show my emotion toward my family about what i feel , or how i feel.

It's just hard for me to express out to them, no matter how i always keep it in my heart. I wish to cry but i told myself every time that no matter how i should not cry out. Deep down in my heart, it always cry and feel sad. Just i don't show and express it out, until the maximum i will explore and cry out, but only until the worse situation. . .

It's so hard to keep and stop cry, i know i'm weak, but i don't like to express it out. i always wearing a mask when i go out.

Hey, it's like i want more people to smile , that's why i always hide and smile out. I hope and see to know more of people smiling. That's all :)

Busy Life.

Holy Shit, i starting to think my room is cursed . . . i grow so tired no matter how long or short i sleep . . . and i have no freaking idea why. . .

So , my class has started the 3rd week and i did't done any of my assignment yet . . .

I'm so lazy .__.!

I got so much stuff to blog , but i'm just so tired.

I think i will blog it 2 more days?

A Late Christmas Gift.

Yesterday when i come back home, my mum told me that someone delivery a box for me? In my mind i'm wondering who send gift for me? . . . my mind is blur and tired until i saw the box ! IT"S FROM RIC!! i never know! cause normally i receive pose card from friends , but a box * imagine what is inside while i'm holding it *

I'm so surprise when i opened the box :D

- I'm so happy to receive 1 box of ginger bread man cookie , a box of candy and a pair of glove awww... your so sweet ric thanks ... mucks -

- Aw see ric is so nice , he even write me a card :D and his cute dog :3 -

- Nice Name card , i need to make mine soon ric -

- Thanks for your gift , i appreciated it a lot -

- I'm not going eat those , saving it till it rotten XD -

End of my Trip.

Early in the morning, as the alarm from our iPhones rang endless due of that we don't want to wake up. . . don't ask me why, we slept at 2am. S-U-P-P-E-R!!!! . . . Oh well back to the room, we woke up and mr bear had his bath and dressed to work and i went down to open door for him.

seeing the clock ! It's 7.30am . . . in my mind , i need sleep . . . 8am wake up . . . by just laying down i tot that it's only last for a while and i'm shock that it's 9am! I'm late for my ride. Mr Tan is coming to fetch me around at 9.30! i quickly went into bathroom and bath, packed my stuff but Mr Tan was 1 step early than me, so i asked him to come down while i'm warping the box . . .

Putting all my stuff in his car, locking the door " Mr tan was helping me to carrying all the stuff into the car. " On the way, i was like ! OMG !! the doll!! i forgot the DOLL!! how can i possibly forgot the doll that he gave? i asked him can we go back and take? he say ok and we went back but it's behind the house.

I quickly went back to the house , get the doll and hop on into his car back and we are on the way to the sexy airport! On the way, like 30min , he was like talking to himself. . . =3= i'm shock cause i tot his talking to me XD. . . 40min and we reach my sexy home ticket machine :D

I took the trolley * no idea what you guys call that for the airport one * stuffed my stuff and wait for him to park his car. . . " was on thinking where can i buy the DAMN LOCK! " soon he reaching to me when he parked his car and we'r heading toward the toilet " too bad i can't peek " LOL then we went to a food court at airport i don't know what's the shop name? ASiaN ? w/e . . .

I never taste so cheap soup before . . . the soup taste like water + bean sprout :| tasteless . . .

- My Stuffy :D -

Took it while eating :D . . . then we went to check in place to wait for it to open :D we'r like waiting for 1 hour waiting at there . . . hey hey hey don't talk crap about me :| i'm the person without transport so i had to come early. . .

Then come a bunch of indian i think . . . who's going to study at Kuching, Segi College. They asked the uncle in front of me for some information, then they come to me.

- A : You guys going to Kuching too?

- T : you can ask him, it's his home town.

- K : Hi~ eerm compare to here, kuching there is kinda boring.

- A : oh then then we know that, what else can you tell us? like the people over there?

- K : people at there are not so friendly as people like here.

- K : and the weather at kuching is much hotter than KL

- A : OMG ! later i become tandori Chicken ....

- K : hahahhaa

- A : ok thanks , i'm not going there, my cousin is . . .

- K : oh okie :D

- A = The indian guy, T = Mr Tan , K = Me -

Then we check in and i go into the waiting area , and Mr Tan went back home to had his sleep, gosh i never know waiting at there is so boring , 2 hours of waiting. . . . I feel want to pee , but i can't leave my stuff behind , too much to carry to toilet but i can't leave them at there, all my laptop and etc :| so i endure. . .

Calling and calling to others non stop so that i can cure my bored-ness . . . soon the plane arrive and walk to the plane . . . i'm sitting at 25E but but what i went to 25 A to sit hahahaha i never know until i notice the when i saw there is a ang mo sitting there then the number with DEF wuwuwu should sit opposite there XD much better " u will know why i say so later "

I never change my place due of the bag i'm carrying with tons of food . . . and i'm block . . . i got 2 melay sitting beside me :| i think it's melay . . . so i don't want to change cause i'm lazy :D hahaha . . . when the plane start i'm starting to fall a sleep XD donno why i'm so tired . . .

suddenly i got woke up by the person who sitting behind me, keep pushing my chair. . . i though it's ok when he keep pushing more and more Like there is ghost within him or " Lok tang " donno la what the fuk . . . i want pee but can't go le still want to push my chair... push till i want to scold him " Hello Uncle wtf ur pushing my chair? Making Sex ha? " so piss ah then when he pushing again i use my body and slam the chair back then he stopped . . . i know it's a guy and i did't get the chance to look at him yet . . .

Ding Ding Dong Dong . . . due of the bad weather we are advise to sit on our seat and wait till our flight end . . . then when the plane stop i stood up and stare at him . . . wtf this guy . . . please la u want ask stuff or what shit don't push my chair! you think it's made of steel won't move one ha? I'm enduring my pee waiting to go to airport to pee u keep pushing ... what if i can't endure and pee on my pant? ! ask you to lick ah !!

Then my mum come and fetch me back home . . . to sleep XD ta ta ... with continue next time.

- My Domo is calling for help D:: -

Money, Sex and Power.

What i should say? In the social nowdays what do you hope for?

Fame? Power? Money? or Sex?

Fame?

- I never thinking of getting any fame when i'm born into this world -

* Might say that i wish that these 4 words never appear on this world *

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

I got hurt by these 4 words from above.

- i don't what to write actually but now i'm on the lowest point of my day -


* slap kick spank enough for my crappy stuff let's begin with what i see *


While i'm enjoying my holiday trips i pass thru these few words in my mind.

1st of all, i found out that a lot of people like to compare each other like what brand they wear or etc, * for example * they goes like ah what you like Nxxx brand? i dont like those cheap cheap brand lo .. . . go for Axxxxxxx, i mean what for your going for more and exp cloth? they look all the same to me just with a brand, * don't look at me i do like branded stuff * but please if you got income that is far better i don't mind,

it's like fashion all the way, kids nowdays , when u look " wah this kid , is he coming to school or a fashion show? '' duh even babies wear branded stuff , but pardon don't you feel that at least you should control and let your kids have a suitable lifestyle?

I'm sure 9 out of 10 people will say, WHAT? no brands? eh so malu when go out , people know your wearing xxxx cheap cloth. SO? let's say for example i let my kids to wear branded * at the age of 15 he ask for more branded , a slipper rm200? sound cheap to him right? cause he never pay for himself. what if 1 day you lost your job? your job fail? your company bankrupt?

Then u can't even afford to pay for your own living and your kids tell you?

K : Dad! Mum!
P : Yes?
K : I went to xxxx mall today and i saw they have new collection ! i like a shirt Rm129.90
P : kid, you know how hard we'r now to survive i lost my job, we need to save.
K : But But but i like that shirt.
P : Try go look for cheaper one at pasar malam.
K : wtf? u guys still have money right? come on just 1 cloth, and the pasar malam is so ugly my friend will laugh at me for wearing those cheap cloth.
P : SO? let them laugh we cant afford it like last time we used to be....
K : but i wear branded till i grew up, what if my friend see me like that and don't want to be my friends anymore? really * diu lian * wearing like that out. my friend all wear branded ler . . . later they make fun of me.
P : . . . Sigh.

- You see this might happen some day if your life? your friend? yourself ? who knows? -

In this world , beside those stuff, something that can give horny people to a way to heaven ,

SEX ! ! !

I meet a guy during my trip, at 1st we are just sleeping suddenly during midnight he starting to hug me, then touch me then kiss and soon or later * chiang chiang *

then he started to strip my cloth 1 by 1, till the end i'm naked and he kiss my nipple,

gosh it's like in the heaven but, when i strip his , till naked we soon hug and kiss

and licking each other **** . all it's so enjoying until something which step over limit in my policy.

He say " can i F*** u? "
I say " nooo i'm dirty i did't clean it "
He say " can't you go clean it for me? "
- He begged for a while , and i went to clean for him , gosh i should slap myself for being so soft heart -
I come out and we continue again
I say " got C meh? "
He say " to tell u the truth i bring it come with me "
I say " :O oh okie? "

- Soon he wear on his little rubber and try to poke me , duh i reject when he try to enter , it was so freaking pain !!! i know some of u like * his **** is short but thick * and he look dissappointing when i say stop , duh i got a some look virgin hole your poking me with you meat pipe . sorry i like to break moods when they want to poke me . -

- we just BJ and Jerk in the end, i know horny slut like thick and long or w/e . . . but i don't everyone got their different taste right? -


Then soon or later a guy come again texting me saying If i'm horny , i can find him to help me,
Duh! uncle look at yourself do i look so desprate for sex? NO THANKS i don't like to have sex with uncle .

3rd one are super funny , he say his horny and want to f*** me , duh. every uncle say that, they want fresh holes bah.... told them u have small holes , they are even more happy, they say will treat you gentle don't believe that crap, when he start enter, will be nice gentle when his dick enter Oh Ho~ MOVE AND ROCK LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW !

I'm scare of people like that, i perfer slow and romantic ways . . .
- duh i'm not good at sex, and i don't feel neeed -
- but i do wish my next door guy would be a *** XD his such a cute guy. -

In the end finally i express what's in my mind. . .

I DON"T SIMPLY SEX !!! I MIGHT BE HORNY AND LIKE TO FILIRT BUT DON'T COMPARE ME WITH THOSE HORNY SLUT

Christmas on KL

Speaking of my holiday trip sorry that, i had not been online so much lately, to say here i'm so sorry to u all , and from here i wish you all Merry Christmas and Happy new year.

For the past few days, i been busy trying to suit myself in KL, and been since before Christmas until now, but it never stop me from going shopping.

I don't like to buy branded stuff so much? no why? cause i'm poor. " If i can't earn a good living what for i buy branded and live like hell? "

Any way, i bought few shirt , pants and shoes for myself @_@ OMG how can i get it back .__.!

2days ago i had myself spending my holiday with jeff and collin as they went to shop for their stuff too, feel bad to trouble them when they ofter to carry my stuff . . . * shy shy cause i feel bad when people carry my stuff cause i might scare they got tired *

I love DKNY sooooooo much that i can't stop searching more of their product * ps don't get wrong i never buy yet * and pull and bear Just i can say it I FREAKING LOVE U ....

:| sad to say i miss u mr tan XD u know who am i speaking of :3

and i went to comic festival at time square it's like SO FREAKING PACK. . . saw a lot crossdresser * male wearing female suit * too .___. so geli so fat still wear till like that .... sigh .... if i'm the one i would dig a hole and hide 1st ;|

Then i meet a few nice people during my ride on LRT to shopping, so funny when i come back from melaka my skin is so freaking tan but i still LOVE IT !!

Merry Christmas to all of you mucks, btw i wish to upload the photo i taken i'm sure 400++ can't fit all XD

and i'm stealing some stick d wifi XD hope " he " don't find out :| ssrhh .... hope i can online more i miss blogging

- this is what i been doing for the past 1 week , from tomorrow onward i will be helping my boss at 1Ultama working there :3 -